(Bad use of paint but that’s not the point of this message)
Why does this have so many notes ? I screenshot it because I didn’t want to give it more notes that it already have ! Why do people feel so ashamed of themselves, of their bodies and weight ? You shouldn’t feel this way, particularly if you feel that way because society is telling you you should look another way. There’s so much pride to have for just being yourself, for loving what you love, for looking the way you do ! Sometimes, people don’t feel comfortable in their bodies and they try to change it and that’s okay if they try to change that as long as THEY are the one behind the decision of making a change. As long as they stay healthy by making said change.
People, stop being ashamed of yourself ! Of your bodies ! You won’t change anything by being ashamed, you’ll only stay in that state of mind for too long. Take control now, know what you love, what you want, do things for yourself only, and even if you don’t know what you want, you can know what makes you happy and that’s enough most of the time ! This things makes me sad and it annoys me also. People, do something. If something is not enough for you, reach for it. Don’t just stay where you are, waiting for it to come, for it won’t. You have to be the change you want to see. And this starts now, today, not tomorow. To quote a movie I really love : You don’t want to be judge ? You won’t be. You don’t think you are strong enough ? You are. You’re afraid. Don’t be. You have all the weapons you need. Now fight.
You’re all beautiful and strong. You have control over your own life, you decide what you want to do with it. Either you keep being ashamed of yourself and keep feeling miserable, either you stand up, go see a psychologist, work on the way you see yourself, go to the gym, eat healthier, learn more about yourself. It’s going to be a long and hard way to reach the top but you are able to do it. I believe in you. You can believe in yourself too.
Photo taken by my friend Jayjay. Some of my fav pics of Anime Boston, as I loved that we had such amazing cosplayers at the shoot andleast one of each guardian andthe children! (Aka a whole cast photo!)
With dreams filled with fighting and being unable to win or the repetition of the same fight over and over again, all of this playing in my head while I’m still very conscious of it, where I can’t even reach a deep slumber, no, I have to toss and turn and open my eyes once in a while to look at the clock and moan in agony as I read it’s 3 o’clock in the morning and I’m still not asleep like I normally would. Then I would close my eyes again to go back in the fighting dreams. This went on until now. Worst night I ever had that I can remember.
I’m not used to insomnia, though I suffer from it more and more these last few weeks. It’s getting on my nerves since I like to sleep and I like not having the same dream over and over again during my nights. I don’t like when I toss and turn until the morning breaks. Maybe eat better and close the computer after a certain hour to read instead would help me.
Do you suffer from insomnia ? If so, do you have any tips to sleep better ?